ex ployy

my brain.. is exploding within my body. my thoughts.. they won't turn off.. my ego, eating me alive. alive- bump bump.. i feel it, yet i do not register with it- my thoughts, my soul burrows itself. there are so many aspects in this- i think i need a guru. i want one, atleast. someone who's presence is overwhelmingly comforting and i don't need to date them to feel it-