Crazy- complete different world right now. an inner, more eclectic, less strings world.

home is here because

i have been thinking... a lot. and its cool to be home and feel so different from before. my spectrum has been broadened a tad bit and it is refreshing. chardon is.. very straight laced and it is nice to be able to step out of the chaos and actually see things for how they are.

it's strange, the concept of "peace." because everyone wants different things in life, so is peace really attainable? athens and chardon are sooooo different. I guess peace has to start from within, just like that cheesy quote. if everyone is happy with where they are at, then we could all be happy together.

we are the generation that could potentially change everything-

i think it's so true that our biggest fear isn't inadequacy but it's actually the fear that we are powerful beyond measure. we are capable of doing anything we want. but boy am i lazy

all i want is happy times with family and friends. i dont really feel like changing the world. at least not right now. but i do want to go to vermont.


(:

Where does everybody else put these feelings

fresh feelings

and we've got to get ourselves back to the garden.

memories are so blissful.
-don't they always seem a little better than they actually were at the time?

i looove anticipation- but i also love having no expectations


there is a part of everything that remains untouched, at least for a little while. i guess i mean innocence. innocence in relationships when you and your lover have never gotten into a fight; when a baby's only capable sin is crying. a big one for me is how i see people as perfect. i see them as perfect for a while, until they prove me wrong. these things are so beautiful. ignorance is bliss. but what i really like more is when innocence is lost- and somehow there is beauty in the flawed- in grace. in the fact that everyone is so broken that it is okay. then real things begin to happen- you work through things and suddenly everything is possible.

he is the slave of his dream and free to act

this light that is forcing me to grow is hard to decipher or distinguish, but i do know it exists.

me be bored

No finals till Tuesday, nothing really to do. So my mind wanders and I fall asleep on the couch and live in dreams and when I wake up I have experienced a whole day and I can't decipher dreaming from not dreaming- but really everything feels like a dream- because as I work (putting away books) my mind wanders and makes up things [conversations with people, invitations, etc] and it's like I am dreaming- my mind tends to wander, and wonder. ;;;;;; barefoot, of course.

All i really need is a window. I could honestly sit here all day.

I am interested in....

People. I am interested in the human quality that we all possess and yet sometimes forget. Sometimes we act like robots who are programmed to do certain things or act a certain way.

I love...

Variety. I love variety, I love being surprised; especially by people's actions. I love when people do something outrageous or completely out of the ordinary. Because one, it is so inspiring to witness. Two, it proves that we are human and we can be completely unpredictable even though sometimes we act like we can fit inside this perfect little mold, this box of a life.


PLEASE SCREAM

PLEASE MAKE A SOUND

DO SOMETHING YOU ARE TERRIFIED, DEATHLY AFRAID TO DO.

I'll try.

I care a little less about a lot of things. It is quite relieving.


they are doing something

stumbles.

"Sometimes the best way to communicate with another person is by not saying a word, but just listening to each other breathe, and be."

How exhilarating it must feel to not have to rely on words and talking to communicate.