im so scared of growing up and im so scared i'll never learn how to be myself. i'm scared of not being like everyone else- i'm scared that being a loner feels so comfortable yet i long for others. i'm scared of things i know i must do. i am so scared of our society and the way it sucks you in. i know i won't be sucked in, but its scary that so many are oblivious to it. i'm scared of trying hard and i'm scared of pushng myself. i have said the word scared so many times in the last few sentences that i don't know what it means anymore. i hate how limited words are. the word "scared" is different for everyone. yet somehow they overlap, and that is where people relate to each other. relate. ah. the best feeling ever. knowing someone knows how you feel.
are you ever not yourself?
ReplyDeletebut i know how you feel.
wow sammy get out of my head
ReplyDeleteactually i really like relating
this also reminds me of this one thing i heard one time...i can't remember where, but that in some other language- i think it's japanese or chinese or something- there are like 10 different words for love. but there might be more actually. anyways, when you were talking about how "scared" can mean so many different things, i thought of "love" in that language. but it's not just that language either. because love can mean so many things too and in so many different ways. the way i "love" my new shoes are different from how i "love" my friends or those other people that people love, you know. but you get what i'm saying.
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